Since my last post in December much has happened, that I've manifested in some way or another.... many lessons were received & learned.
When I fell down and got a concussion and subsequent black-eye, it completely stopped my momentum. It forced me to rest, introspect, lay low... I could barely think straight for several days afterwards. HEADACHE! All this in the middle of the Christmas holiday season and year-end of 2011, which was a very "struggling" year in every way for me.
So it seemed fitting to end the year looking like a boxing fighter all bruised-up after an arduous fight. The physical body displaying & reflecting the inner work! But also, the most important lesson I received from that head injury was that it forced me to get OFF my brain and drop into my heart-mind! "Don't THINK so much!" Knocked down but not knocked out... get right back up as I've always done; but SLOW DOWN and LET IT BE.
I also think that some karmic effect was involved too, of course. Back in my early 20's when I was in 2 consecutive abusive marriages, there were several instances when I sustained serious punches (contusions & bruises) all over my body & legs, but never did I receive a direct fist-punch to my face nor a black-eye. (Which also made it easier for me/him to hide the abuse incidents' markers). So, now I've finally cleared any possible karma linked to having a black-eye, that I had avoided all those years back... AND, I received more "dying" and detachment of the EGO linked to my physical appearance. Black Eye: checked!
As always, being on an awakened spiritual path of service to others does NOT mean that you will have a smooth-sailing obstacle-free life. But what it does is CHANGE how YOU react & perceive the hardships thrown your way. Free of emotional drama & victimization! Seeing it all like pieces in a game of chess, from a higher perspective, with COMPASSION & (self) LOVE.
Lesson learned! Amen
